You know that feeling within you that ignites during those serendipitous moments when you really see what it means to be living. You think to yourself, “Man, life is good to me. And I’m doing THIS. I am doing me, and I am being me and creating something.” You think to yourself, “I’ve got a feeling I can be someone.”
And it hits you – This is your life. This is your story. This is your journey. This is who you are and why you are and how you are.
I was thinking about this today on my way back from dropping off a dear friend at the airport. There I was driving across this gigantic bridge that was taking me over a river with the sun setting on it. As I drove across the bridge I was listening to Tracy Chapman tell the story in her song Fast Car of a young couple dreaming up plans to say goodbye and escape from it all as they chase after the life they’ve always wanted simply based on the one feeling we should always protect – the feeling of hope – the feeling we can be someone.
And I thought about this in my own life. I thought about how it wasn’t that long ago that I got in the car and took off without looking back based on believing in this one simple hope that I could be someone. I’m still getting there. I’m still doing what I have to do and taking leaps of faith and screwing up and succeeding at the same time.
WHEN THE ROAD STARTS TO CIRCLE
When we’re young we all have this feeling we can be someone. We all have our big dreams and plans and hopes. We’re wide-eyed and ready to take on the world and all that it has to offer.
And then we get a little older and suddenly life starts to catch up with us and life gets a little harder. Shit happens. We screw up. We fail. We get hurt. We hurt others. We get ourselves lost and stuck to the point where we don’t even know where the exit or the entrances is.
Finally, there we sit, clenching our armrests scared to death with no idea where we’re driving this thing. At this point we now have an ultimatum – we can get out of here – head to a new, unknown destination out in the hope-filled horizon, or we can live and die that way – driving around on this road that seems to circle infinitely.
WHEN WE FINALLY PICK AN EXIT
I think we all hit this point a few special times in our lives. And it is by no means easy or simple. Then again, is anything worthwhile and lasting ever as easy as 1-2-3? Hell no! For me personally, if I think back to these fork-in-the-road-moments in my life I can remember the pain of going through it all, but I wouldn’t change a damn thing.
I wouldn’t take back the heartbreak and uncertainty of going through the ending of a 4 year relationship with someone I deeply love. It was those feelings that taught me what it means to have loved and lost.
I wouldn’t take back the feelings of insecurity and doubt I went through when I lost myself in the limbo of indecision and feeling like I had no direction in my life. It was those feelings that forced me to take that leap of faith and move to China for a year. That was the greatest year of my life.
I wouldn’t take back the feelings of being overwhelmed if I could start my own web design business and reach that location independence lifestyle I’ve always known I needed to be happy. It was those feelings that showed me the power of a work ethic with 110% dedication can get you anything your wildest dreams desire and the naysayers say you can’t have or do.
I wouldn’t take back any of the bullshit or the bad days or the bad friends or the bad choices. The good days and good friends and good choices have outlasted and out numbered all of those things.
I look back on those times and I remember what it’s like to drive on a road that only ever seems to circle back around to its starting point. Sometimes you have put every last ounce of energy and every last piece of you into breaking out of whatever it is that’s stopping you from seeing that there’s an exit and a fork in the road right in front of you.
And you know what happens when you do finally ditch that endless circle? You get that feeling where you can’t help but think and yell from the rooftop and prove to yourself and everyone around you that, “You know what? …I can be someone.”
BE SOMEONE – the world needs you to.
So, what are you being and trying to be? How are you inspiring the world and living your dreams by being someone? When did you realize that YOU can be someone.
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